This is a really happy song.

i laughed

maybe it was more of a chuckle to myself. I've been getting pretty bogged down by school and grades and completing requirements. I don't like this part of school but I could go on for a while if I followed this tangent so I will save it for another blog. 

anyways, I have been getting back tests and assignments with not the best marks. but today I got back a homework assignment in my computer networks class and straight up 100/100. I just laughed to myself when I saw it. not sure why but it just felt really good.

and. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!

do I know you from somewhere?

Alright so this has been frustrating me. actually I don't think frustrating is the right word. but I will try and explain. 

In recent years I've become obsessed with the idea of being a regular. alright, maybe not obsessed but I just try and make a habit of going to the same places as much as I can. I like the idea of going into a place and knowing the people there. it's refreshing and makes me feel like less of a stranger in my current setting. i don't know how to achieve regular status and whether or not I have achieved it. 

but I would say the spot that I frequent the most is perks, a nice coffee shop on campus. in fact, I am there now. it has an interesting dynamic, being on campus and all, because i see the same people all the time and they go to my school. and its always great when I see friends. what's bothering me is seeing the not friends. there's a group of people that I literally see every day here but never interact with. and I guess this is my problem. I'm just not good at or used to talking with strangers. 

to think that I could graduate and never know even the names of these people is so depressing. I wish that seeing the same person in the same setting at least 4-5 times a week could lead to some sort of connection.  don't we live to connect?

this is awesome

I found out a few weeks ago that Port O'Brien was playing a radio show at KSDT and I was pretty amped. Their set was short because they had to get to the casbah for a show that evening but they said that they could get some people in. So I got on the guest list! it was great.

really nice guys (and girl) though. and an epic show. check them out!

quirks

i think that I have a lot of quirks and I am going to start sharing with the blogging world when they pop into my head. i think quirks tell a lot about a person. hopefully they don't make you think i'm weird and stop reading my blog.

anyways, today's quirk is a behavior that i exhibit at coffee shops. i'm not an espresso connoisseur but i know a good espresso drink and appreciate. i mean when you're paying upwards of three dollars it should be of quality. 

2 things factor into a good espresso drink: the espresso machine and the barista. For places that I go more frequently I know the espresso machine and the baristas. and my decision to get an espresso drink or just a cheap cup of brewed coffee depends on who I see behind the espresso machine. this is the quirk. seems logical right? today, was an espresso drink day and it was great.  

these are silly.

at least for now

i keep getting into the "what are you doing after" conversation since i'm in my senior year of college. and it always goes the same way. since i'm not going to grad school I say probably getting a job and they say down here or back home. i posted before about my personality trait (problem) of wanting my life to be at least a little exciting/interesting. so this conversation (not the person who initiates it) kinda bothers me. 

in my situation grad school has two cons and one pro. 

cons: i'm kind of burnt out on school, money 

pro: going to a new place 

if my response changed to "grad school" this conversation would stop bothering me. but i'm not. i used to just answer "getting a job in europe or the east coast or something" but now i'm stuck. I'm familiar with/know people in San Diego and Santa Cruz and could probably have a cool living situation in either place. this logic makes the decision seem easy. but now is the time to go new places (in my situation especially) because I really don't have anything tying me to a certain place and i should be able to find a job most places. i have a fear of living somewhere for the rest of my life. this sounds kind of ridiculous. 

this isn't a solution or answer but I want a friend or friends to want to move somewhere new whether its for grad school, work or whatever. and then go with. at least for now.